HI!

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ps: I love her tumblelog. :)

a greeting to my readers. HI! how are you all been doing? I'm hoping you're all great.
finally, huh?
this is my first post in like, what? the whole month? no?
aha i feel like i haven't posted in years!
well, things come and go, as usual.
honestly, i have nothing to talk about here... just a random post. a nice "hi" to all of you.
so I'm just going to write a list here. some random facts:

1. writing in sweats here.. the air conditioner's off. going to shower once I finish the list.
2. deleted my previous Twitter acc. why? don't ask. well, you ask anyway.. the answer is, it was a good day to start over. that's all. :) so please follow the new one!
3. regret that I missed the opportunity of a lifetime.
4. I love high school. hate to know that it's almost over. :(
   
5. going to hike tomorrow. back home on Wed. hopefully I'll be able to update once I'm home. I've prepared everything though.
6. SO BORED HERE. blurgh.
7. Done. see ya next time.

Love,
Adani

At the mean time, I'm back.

Enough with the bullshits and promises that say I'm gonna update regularly again.
Because I know I won't.
We seriously need some catching up to do that's why I'm gonna inform you soon what you've probably missed.
I might change the URL.



ps: I've changed. This is not Adani who wrote that last post. See ya! :D

ATTENTION PLEASE.

i am truly sorry for being gone in a while.
i can't promise you anything but hopefully i'll update the blog regularly again after this :):)
i've been VERRRRY busy studying, taking courses, shitloads of homeworks, and i'm taking myself closer to God :)
even i have no time to meet with my pals :( this is sad.
but i am always standby on my blackberry. email me if you need anything.

damn damn damn got so many things to write down here but homeworks are calling! :(

this is adani, signing out!

ney.

Cornelius is love.

yellow blogger fellows!!!!!!!
today is the LAST day of holiday. no fun :(
i am absolutely not excited about going back to school. ABSOLUTELY.
how was your holiday? mine was filled with all disney and warner bros movies. their movies are everlasting and original. i believe that cinderella will still be exist by the time my grandchild borns.
i stayed home all week. really. i met no friends this last week. yeah i admit i'm fucking bored at home.. but dvds and youtube *thank God someone invented it* are being such good holiday partners :):)
my favorite part of this holiday is i watched THUMBELINA!!!!! my long lost favorite movie, oh :') this movie is a bit sad tho cause everyone wants to marry thumbelina. mr toad. the beetle. mr mole. well... none of them deserves her *fo sho*
and i will give you the best scenes with the best soundtrack from the movie! hihi enjoy :)





in the end, true love wins. thumbelina and cornelius live happily ever after... *clapping her hands*
"anything that you desire, anything at all.. everyday i'll take you higher, and i'll never let you fall.."

ney

NY Premiere.

definitely can't wait to watch this :):) hopefully mom will allow me since she forbids me to go out until i get to college, but yeah she exaggerates things sometimes. *fingers crossed*

emma watson looks tremendously stunning and tom felton! GOD he's hot!!!!!!!!!

all pictures are taken from tumblr.

ney.

UNEXPECTED NEWS.

he says:
News, I'm not coming this December.
she says:
hah.
she says:
why...
she says:
why....................:'(:'(
she says:
i've been waiting for you to come here.
she says:
you're not gonna be here on your bday?
she says:
he says:
No. I will be there on yours.

quickly burst into tears. he told me like 10 mins ago. i still can't believe it. speechless. am i dreaming? am i hallucinating? this feels so real. why is he doing this for me? i don't know if i can give something fair for him in return. thank you. so much. i can't say anything else. this means a lot to me. i love you farouq.. yes he is the guy i've been talking about recently.. i can't think of someone more lovely than he is.. this is unbelievable.. dream comes true. thank you so much.. :")

Imagine.

yes i am very imaginative. this is an imagination i have been imagining since 2 days ago..
as you know my birthday is coming. soon. (well next month, but it's coming)


thinking about this in my head. that i am going to celebrate my birthday in a dinner with my loved ones. very private. less than 20 people excluding family.


and theeeeen when everyone's having dinner... marsh whispers, "i have a birthday present, this is my surprise". and then.. HE shows up. and i will be like "SHUT UP! SHUT UP! NO WAY!" everyone's cheering while i burst into tears of happiness and still shouting this and that. picturing there he smiles (OMG YOU SHUD SEE HIS SMILE, LIKE U SEE ALL THE HAPPINESS IN THE WORLD) and looking in my eyes and opening his arms wide welcoming me to hug him URHHHH! the first thing i'll say is.... "why are u here????? i would've dressed better if i know ure going to be here!!!!!! this is embarrassing!!!!" :P

but there's no way this is going to come true. well if this happens im sure that's when i'm out of my mind, or my imagination has developed to be some kind of hallucination. i exactly know the situation is different now :) but everytime i imagine this i will smile or tear up a bit. he means alot. :):)):))) i'm going to imagine things so i'll stay happy. yabba dabba dooo!!!!

Random facts.

i can't imagine how strong celebrities are. all the rude comments and public opinions, they survive.

have you experienced it? i have. that was very traumatic.

one more thing, i don't give a fuck. you don't like my blog, don't read it. you don't like what i tweet, unfollow me. problem solved. get a life.

Senior year.

High school sucks. I mean it.

well you know what I'm talking about, high school.

I remember the excitement I felt 2 years ago that I was so grateful God gave me the opportunity to study at this school. I was so happy this and that. Yeah been there done that.

it turned out not as good as I imagined..

i know that some of you who will enter high school this year *congratulations* feel so glad and thinking of high school as "the best three years of your life", it doesn't work that way for me.

the 10th grade went nice. struggled at first but it kinda smooth in the end. tho it changed me, both in good way and bad way. broke something that was very important for me before, something that I held so tightly, my promise to God. *not what you think* but um, i failed the challenge.. and FRIENDS totally, totally changed everything. i got along with some of em.. *it disgusts me to remember that i was close to people who brought such negativities* only a very few of em fit me well.. i was being a very happy bubbly energetic person that year, but it WAS NOT who i am. yes i was humorous and that loud before but not for that kinds of things. i thought that jokes which my friends made were out of line.. i used to not talk such dirty words, but the 10th grade friends made me, no i'm not blaming them but they affected me alot.. this year made myself a bad image to people's eyes :( i was wrong.

11th grade? FLAT. very. thank God i had a wonderful chairmate hera, i had so much fun with them and a lot of bonding times.. but there were only hera, we had each other's back but that was it, the others were blah.. not all of em, i was kinda close to some of them but the only fun and happiness i had in 11th grade was only hera.. i faced so much troubles and problems that year, they kinda sucks. i have never, ever, had a problem with teacher before.. but 11th grade ruined the record. my scores and grades were very low.. and my friends told the teacher that i was kind of an alien in the class, "i had fun with my own world", a very loner, that's what they think.. and it's true. i didn't talk much. i didn't go out of class much. spent most of my time in class, either to sleep, read novels, listen to music, or just stay still.. yes i was very quiet.. because i felt uncomfortable talking to the others.. and of course it was VERY NOT ME. very far from who i truly am. really, high school had changed me so much.

and i just got informed that i will enter the class filled with strangers *which made me write this post* i know some of them but we were not close.. well i am not close to anyone in high school. that's the impact of not having many friends in the last two years, and my actions for not interacting with the others.. i am very upset. at least it will be more motivating to study in class with people you know.. or people you can chat with, people you can ask questions to, OR people who'd likely ask you to be in their homework/task group, anything. i am scared, scared of humiliating myself in front of them that i am not as smart as they are.. scared to feel that im being left out.. there will be nobody who'd like to be my chairmate.. or who are the people whom will be in my drama group? :'( screw high school. i am very positive that this senior year will be exhausting.. have to ignore every emotions and concentrate for college instead.. so hard :(

i really want to give you some advices or lesson about this but i'm just not into it right now.. my head's still dizzy cause my mom's making it worse by asking uncomforting questions.. i only want to tell a story here.. i know i did wrong, it was because of me, it was my fault, but im in an emotional situation now.. soon i'll clear my head tho..

but i will always still high school like i've always been. that will never change.

ps: sorry for the unstructured sentences and my lousy grammar.. i can't think much lately..

Mama you know I love you... :)

i've talked about my brother, alot about papa, but i hardly ever talked about mother.

probably it's because we spend most of our times fighting or ignore each other, but that doesn't mean I don't love her, it's because it's hard to admit or it's just my arrogance making me not showing my love for her.

father passed away after dating mom for 7 years plus 17 years of marriage, and after mom gave birth to three children. imagine that. very hard. father died at such a young age and haven't seen his children, (especially me) grow up. but mother, as the one who's still here and left by my father's passing, had to take all the responsibility to take care of three children and everything, everything. alone. whether she wants to or not, whether she's able to or not. she had to, there's no other choice. with no one to share her feelings, no one to lean on. mom once said that it felt like the sky falls down to her.

i am so proud of her because she has shown us the power of our faith to God, the power of praying, believing, that God will never leave us in any condition we're in. mom is a very religious person, she gives up everything to God.. that's why she survives, WE survive. mom's a housewife remember? but with all of God's blessing we're still here..

for almost seven years mom lived through everything on her own.. until she married a man whom I believe will make mother happy and will love mom with all his heart. though there will be no one who can ever replace dad :) but at least mom now has someone to share.. :)

everything takes time, needs a process. me myself didn't accept that at first.. but in the end I realized that we are growing up, so does mom.. we will all work, get married, and have our lives.. what do you think if we didn't allow mom marry him? mom was lonely, of course she was. i tried not to be selfish and let mom had her happiness.. and thanks Allah mother is happy now with her husband..

i love mom. *starting to cry* i know i'm a bad daughter and i often let you down. i've disappoint you alot and i haven't done anything for you to return all that you've done for me.. thanks mom for always trying to give us our best. thanks for always having my back whenever i'm down.. thanks for being so strong in facing everything you've been through for us.. thanks for surviving. thanks for your love. i love you so much. i wish God will give us time to spend alot of times together.. i'll always be with you mom.

ney.

WATERBOM PIK.

as you already see in icha's blog, me, icha, dew, reni, dini, and meidy went to Waterbom PIK last thursday.

it was the first time I go there and quite fun :)

I tried all the slides there.

it's me sliding on The Whizzard! sadly I have no picts showing me sliding on both of the Super Slides :( our favorite is of course The Hairpin!

The weather was pretty friendly but since I sunbathed all day, of course my skin got darker :(:(:(:(:( I am no longer the snow white!!!! Damn it I hate ultraviolet :'(

picts below are very unimportant hahaha they're showing our meal :p

that's ummm Korean soda ice cream? which icha and dew said nothing tastes like soda :/ it's so milky instead. weird.

that's Korean fried satay? I forgot the name :p tastes sweet and spicy! you should try! I love the mustard yummm I think it's better than mayonnaise ;p

dini got her temporary tattoo which was SO BAD and shows that the tattoo artist is NOT A PRO. strictly not recommended. here's the picture :)

SEE SEE? 35 thousands rupiah for this. such a waste.

In the end we have to say goodbye to waterbom! bye bye see youuuuu!!!!!! <3<3

(I took the picture, that little girl beside Reni is not me, I know I know I'm short, please -_-)

ney,

Konnichiwa!

Hello hello my dearest people.
This is what I've been trying to tell the whole world....

The first thing that will make my birthday on August 8th sucks, is, my current favorite guy won't be here. That makes me sad :( This is our another little conversation...

He says: If I go there this August, I won't be there for New Year's or my birthday.

I say: Why is that? Why can't you be here on both occasions?

He says: I can't. Because my dad doesn't think your birthday is as important as I do.

*well that's sweet, very sweet* But I still hate that he's not going to be here :(

He is my childhood lover.

We were a couple like.... 5 years ago. and a year after that we were back together, but then broke up again. lol.

But the fact is I still can't get over him all these years.

Lol I shouldn't be telling this.

Keep this secret between us ok? smooch smooch.

ney.

Mom's bday dinner.

mom's birthday was on june 25th and we had dinner at a sundanese restaurant.

sadly teteh meta wasn't there due to her duty to work :(:(

{ kak nyssa *my brother's girlfriend, mommy, and me }

just to show you how beautiful my mom is :)

{ kakak adhit and kak nyssa }

NAN&MARSH!

{ marsha, me and nani }

yesterday i went out with both of my elementary pals.

best pals! it was very exciting and i had loads of fun!!!!!

they are still my best friends! i am so happy that they are still the same person i knew before :)

well Marsha is alot nicer now, no more sarcastic words! and Nani is so much louderrrrr!!!!

one thing for sure is they've grown to be such gorgeous ladies

{ see? the word gorgeous suits them :) }

we did alot of catching up and chit chat talked about everything this and that.

the sad thing is Ellya and Diskha weren't there.

Ellya couldn't come because she already had her own plan and I blame diskha's boyfriend for kidnapping her for the last 2 years :(

Nani is still innocent yet humourist. right after marsha finished eating baby octopus as her dinner, Nani told us a very very ridiculous story.....

"Gue gamau makan gurita selamanya, sumpah sumpah! jadi ya gue pernah baca gitu di majalah ada orang tuh habis makan gurita, terus hamil gitu kan! udah seneng gitu hamil, tau gak sih lo... ternyata yg diperutnya itu bayi gurita!!!!!!!!!!" -_- fyi, she whispered the last sentence like it was a secret, got it? jesus she really is the same person! :D

so many stupid things Nani did, remarkable! loool. I'm so going to meet them again, soon! they really made my day. it was a great great saturday evening :) I love you both, "true friendship never ends" :))

Location : Plaza Senayan

ney.

:---)

He says:
You want me to joke around? Okay I'll humour you.
She says:
Hahahahaha okay tell me a jokeeee....
He says:
You look like a careless piece-of-shit pregnant female smoking hobo. If you were to enter the Hall of Mirrors, every mirror would break and mirrors in 2 miles radius would also break. People passing by you would look at you in disgust because you look so fat that they thought you were a rare animal.
He says:
THAT's a joke.
She says:
and what's the truth?
He says:
You're beautiful. That's the truth.


Still there are many things he said.
Nothing's just as sweet as you.
<3


Ney